Sunday, August 3, 2014
There wasn't a lot to look forward to--forty hours a week in a dusty, blue polo, stacking boxes and straightening shelves for Kroger. I haven't had an original idea since school let out. I use what little free time I have to ingest old Doctor Who, Walking Dead, and Arrow episodes, interrupted only by meals and Batman graphic novels. I enjoyed just consuming for a few weeks, but after two and a half months of "feeding," I'm ready to create again.
The problem is, here at home, I've accepted a lazy lifestyle. I have a month left at home and I'm constantly hoping that going back to UK will make me productive again. Planning for the new semester helps me work through the mundane existence that is tossing up bottles of hand soap on dirty shelves every day. I remind myself why I'm working: Nathan, these past eight hours paid for your British Literature textbooks. That reminder hydrates me for the next work day.
I'm working in Independence, but waiting for Lexington. Lexington motivates me to tuck in my shirt, slap on my hat, and tie my shoes every morning
This subconscious exaltation of Lexington isn't healthy. I'm telling myself daily that a few miles away there is a place with super green bluegrass. I'm putting my hope in a city, but my location isn't my problem. As wrong as this mindset is, I need to replicate it spiritually.
A long time ago, a tent-maker named Paul encouraged his friends to live as though they were citizens of Heaven. He reminded them that everything they do today should be done to better their future kingdom, that they should focus their lives around making disciples and worshiping God instead of sowing tents and picking veggies.
His encouragement is easy to understand. To live our lives centered around the Gospel and Heaven is as easy as working at Kroger to pay for school. Everything I do in that blue polo, I do so I can write papers, get my degree, watch basketball games, win a national championship, and call myself a Kentucky Wildcat. Those things are more rewarding and long lasting than my boss's approval of me at work. In the same way, everything I do on Earth, I should do so I can make disciples, improve people's lives, and celebrate God's grace. Paul says no moth will every eat these like they might our clothes, no rust will ever touch these like it might our cars, and no fire will every consume these like it might our bodies. The Gospel is more rewarding and long lasting than a paycheck and a Bachelor's degree.
If I center my life around Christ, I have to depend on the Gospel. My work today will be based on my expectation of Heaven. My faith will give me the energy to complete mundane tasks at work, read my Bible, and show compassion to the people around me.
This faith will not disappoint me, even if Lexington does. I'm asking God to give me this faith. Before I know it, my drive will be over and I'll be home.